lookie lookie here...

So here I am teaching a lesson just like I do any ordinary day and what do I see here?? Oh! My lesson today is about a journal entry... June 17, 1763! hahaha! How intriguing, 249 years ago from my wedding date TO BE the Mississippi River was discovered!! hahaha! Random, I know, but still thought it was an interesting connection between class, history, and MY WEDDING! thought I'd share :)

Pushing daisies

Oh flowers, why do you have to be so difficulty?? So it's now time for me to deal with flowers for the wedding... Lol, when I talked to my florist and told her I wanted gerbera daisies she informed me that it is probably one of the most expensive ones I could choose... Being that we have opted to invite more people and spend less everywhere else I decided to change flowers. So I went with peonies! Lol, just to find out they too rank as the most expensive flowers! What expensive taste I have!! So after 2 days of additional searching I have come to a list of flowers that supposively are NOT thaaaat expensive...

Peruvian Lilies

Lisianthus

Roses

Cala lilies

Oriental lilies or Casablanca lilies...

I'm not sure the last two fall under the flowers on the cheap list but they're soooooo pretty? I can splurge a little right?? Besides this doesn't mean I'm gonna use allll these flowers, but at least narrowing them down.. So now comes the tedious task of finding pictures of bouquets, boutinuers, and center pieces... If you find any, let me know!!! Anything will help instead of me spending HOURS going through my 6000 pictures collection.

I have found this bouquet... After I decided Peruvian lilies I googled and came up with this... I think I'm in love!! What do you think?

I'm back! With a vengeance!!!!

Im blogging! Lol, So I've been thinking of blogging for a few months now...being pushed to do it by some...but when I think, "ok, I'm gonna do it!" I get so lazy!!! Lol... Then I ran into a brides blog and how she wanted to remember the whole planning process, how happy she was and blah blah blah..I thought...dang, I want that?! Lol still took me 2 months after lol.

Anyways, thought I'd start with my true underlying feelings. So, I am a typical romanticist girl...who's been planning her wedding since she was in 2nd grade. But from the moment I said yes it's been nothing I imagined! All these ideas I had growing up we're not good enough or the fiancé didn't like them. Grrr... I feel like I constantly have a deadline I have to meet. At the beginning it wasn't too bad, I would just remind myself still a year to go...still 9months to go... Still 7 months to go... And now I'm at 4 months...omg...I was so happy at the beginning, planning and deciding and looking. But now? Ugh...I'm just tired.. I want this to be over... We're always arguing, I can't choose anything, and then people text me wanting decisions...it just reminds me how behind I am and how much I still have to go. People say to take a break from the planning to reconnect with your huney.. But how can I when every second a new to do pops in my head? And my time is running out!!!! It got to the point where I was asking myself..is this really what I want? Do I really want to be married with him? Or am I doing this because I want to get married?

Like an answer to from God, I received a phone call a few nights ago from a close family member, they wanted to know how I was doing and coping..not how school was, or how the wedding was, but me...man it's been awhile since I received a call like that. I didn't know how to answer. But as we kept talking I started opening up, and of course wedding was involved in it. Towards the end she said, "I can tell you're still in love! You still have your glow." Lol, whaaat? Glow? How? I'm moody, constantly fighting, and frustrated and upset? But that's because I'm a perfectionist! Hearing those words, and also hearing that I'm actually really on top of my game has rejuvenated my wedding planning spirit! I'm ready to continue to tackle this tedious process! And I will even blog (hopefully) so I can remember and those around me can see, and maybe help?, how the last few months are going...